electrical sufferings on his constituents than civil wars,
battles among party’s factions and caudillos, even than all the
catastrophes – earthquakes, hurricanes, sunamis – that can assail human
beings from the sky, the sea or the center of the earth.Though sometimes our « beloved » dictator can bring a measure of safety
and illusion to the embattled country and neutralize the threat posed
by foreign observants. But after all, his country payes gravely in a
loss of political and civil liberties.
For my jailed father, a former executive and politician loyal to our
« beloved » dictator, he never understood the reason of his kafkaesque
fall from grace, he never understood whether the « beloved » dictator was
simply testing his loyalty – as he did so routinely with those closest
to him – or whether there was some unthinking lapse of devotion on his
Although my jailed father remains an ardent ally of his « beloved »
dictator, despite the loss of favor, I remain personally out of
disillution mostly because of the devastating social and economic toll
that the dictatorship has taken on our beautiful country. Foremost I am
out of disgust and dispair over the losses and human right abuses
people had suffered at his hands.
Our « beloved » dictator is, in fact, killing my father with a method
that is slower and more perverse than when he killed some priests, shot
or beaten to death. He is killing him in stages, taking away his
decency, his honor, his self respect, his joy in loving, his hopes and
desires; turning him into a sack of bones tormented by the guilty
conscience that has been destroying him gradually for almost 7
I truly understand the fear and excitement felt by the dictators’
jailers and torturers as they humiliate my father. They hope that by
slowly killing my dad and his relatives, they can keep the power
forever. They aknowledge that if their evil plan to exterminate us goes
awry, they and their families could pay a terrible price for all the
human sacrifices inflected to us.
At 74, our « beloved » dictator is a man obsessed with his own declining
heath and sexual prowess – a control freak, who likes to exercise his
« droit du seigneur », an expert in the arts of manipulation. His cronies
and closed allies are an equally loathsome.
This is a brief description of our « beloved » dictator regime and his subsequent bloody legacy.